I think that if my uterus can't be bothered to do the one job it was actually created to do, it should at the very least have the decency to go lay down next to it's dish and be quiet.  It's only right.

I am home now. Let all the follow up doctor appointments commence! =)

So much for knowing. Clearly I don't know jack. *sigh ( Read more... )

I'm making myself crazy. I feel pregnant. I believe I'm pregnant. It's still a couple of days before I'll know if it's true.

It's weird. In the past I've thought I might be, wondered if I was, even worried I was, but at no time did I just know it was true. This feels so real. Like I'm not alone in my body anymore ( Read more... )

So I went in to the doctor today to get an ultra sound to see how my second course of Clomid was working. Since the doctor told me that most women with my condition don't see results till they are on roughly double my current dose, I wasn't really expecting anything today. It was just a hoop I had to jump through so that I could get my higher dose ( Read more... )

I want to thank everyone for their encouragement and support. I understand the urge to fix things when you see someone in pain. That need to help. I know that there are other ways to be a mother other than giving birth; surrogacy, adoption, foster parenting. I'm must not ready to think about any of that right now. The diagnosis is less than 24 ( Read more... )

So today was the uterine torture test. It didn't go well ( Read more... )

This started out as a reply to sarahf but some how it kinda turned into a post. Go figure ( Read more... )

Cuz it's not enough that my body has shown absolutely no inclination towards getting pregnant. Or that every time I hold Hunter it feels like someone is making shallow cuts in my heart that are making me slowly bleed to death. Or that I haven't had a good nights sleep in the last 6 weeks or so because of all the nightmares. It's not like just ( Read more... )

It's probably a bad sign that the other night, out of the blue, Karl asked me why I went off my antidepressants a few years ago.